I keep trying to control things.... as though I have control over what is next hahaha! It is so easy to fool yourself into feeling in control. Afterall, that is human nature (a flawed one at that). I am tired to trying. Tired of trying to be fit, smarter, healthier, and in control. I am so not in control.... of anything. Just when I think I undersand things... just when I feel content for but a moment the boat gets rocked!
In Mark 4: 35-41, Jesus and the disciples are in a boat. A storm comes along and violently shakes the boat. All of the disciples are fearful for their lives are in danger. Jesus is in the stern, sleeping. The disciples run to him fearful.... how can he be asleep at a time such as this! They wake him asking him "Teacher do you not care if we drown?" Jesus then gets up, says to the waves "Quiet! Be still!" In that moment the waves listened and all was calm again.
Life is nothing but a storm sometimes... our world is rocked regularly. Sometimes it is just day to day annoyances. Sometimes it so much deeper than just an annoyance. It is a life altering circumstance (death, finances, divorce, illness, etc.)
What do we do.... we sit and fret and stress. I always look for a resolution. A game plan. I try to forsee the outcomes and have a back up plan to any sort of resolve. It is a defense mechanism, I have been surviving with it my whole life.
Let's go back to Mark in the Bible for a moment. Jesus calms the storm. I am sure the disciples are just wowed at this point. Jesus turns to them and says to them “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”